I'm a child of Love. I look the entire lifetime of that evil seed springing up, buds and open up to the Firmament as black, graceful, but poisonous flowers. I'm not trying to pick them up, but they look prettier than anything my eyes saw once. 'Someone from above, is watching us .....' I want blissful smile before bedtime each night to myself. It is an inseparable part of me and my right!
Are you a hedonist in Your body and mind or your body and mind are hedonists in you? What about your memories? Whether you keep them in Yourself or have to deal with them? Can you be reborn with them or you're dying from them every day? Do you know that today's man is composed with minimum of Self? Why? Because himself is being trampled underfoot! Love Yourself for God's sake! There's no law for that!
I also lived a lie. Not by birth or upbringing- I was lading by paths of others, for which I unfailingly ran - seeking salvation for them. In my heart has always been a place for people ... I've fought a lot of battles in my life, most of those with myself. And it never really worked , but I loved it. We were sailing through the imagination , the ego, in the opinion and speech. 'Gunses...' were playing and we didn't care for the World. The time was surprisingly fast spinning and space was changing. Until we come to zero. Nothing! I've been opening my eyes wide, every morning, but I was less and less able to see. Faded memories... Even hope knew how to go into the fog. and I wasn't someone who would be lost in fear, but in myself ... I was fading too ...
I didn't stayed there, but just there- I've become.
I feel sorry for darkness. And the devil too. Instead he continue to dance with me, he left me half a step to tap - there, where he knows that I can't see. Idiot! My heart is the greatest Light in my life. It can't hurt me. Never or ever! It forgot that I carry it in myself, and it's only controled by me, no matter how others were draging it out ...
Sometimes I'm angry... About the World, about the people and endless stupidity ... I allow my Emotions to flow, but they don't rule. The power of the Dance in me rules, which I've balanced for a long time in myself. Love isn't just an emotion, it's a set of other emotions and human behaviors. It's fearless guide and endless energy. As Seed, as Truth, as Life that begins when it breaks an egg ... Light doesn't come from the outside. It is breathable. Therefore give birth to this spring, because everything we were and what we will be- now we are- at this moment! The very awareness of the current can opens another door to us.
Never give up on yourself!
Stay positive! Alice.